Wholeness of Life
Chapter 4
5th Public Talk Ojai California
16th April 1977
Death--a Great Act of Purgation
Death is something not only mysterious but a great act of
purgation. That which continues in a repetitive pattern is
degeneration. The pattern may vary according to country,
according to climate, according to circumstance, but it is a
pattern. Moving in any pattern brings about a continuity and
that continuity is part of the degenerating process of man. When
there is an ending of continuity, something new can take place.
One can understand it instantly if one has understood the whole
movement of thought, of fear, hate, love - then one can grasp
the significance, instantly, of what death is.
What is death? When one asks that question, thought has many
answers. Thought says: "I do not want to go into all the
miserable explanations of death." Every human being has an
answer to it, according to his conditioning, according to his
desire, his hope. Thought always has an answer. The answer will
invariably be intellectual, verbally put together by thought.
But one is examining, without having an answer, something
totally unknown, totally mysterious - death is a tremendous
thing.
One realizes that the organism, the body, dies and the brain -
having in life been misused in various forms of self-indulgence,
contradiction, effort, constant struggle, wearing itself out
mechanically, for it is a mechanism - also dies. The brain is
the repository of memory; memory as experience, as knowledge.
From that experience and knowledge, stored up in the cells of
the brain, as memory, thought arises. When the organism comes to
an end, the brain also comes to an end, and so thought comes to
an end. Thought is a material process - thought is nothing
spiritual - it is a material process based on memory held in the
cells of the brain; when the organism dies, thought dies.
Thought creates the whole structure of the me - the me that
wants this, the me that does not want that, the me that is
fearful, anxious, despairing, longing, lonely - fearful of
dying. And thought says: "What is the value, what is the
significance of life for a human being who has struggled,
experienced, acquired, lived in such an ugly, stupid, miserable
way and then for it to end?" So, thought then says: "No, this is
not the end, there is another world." But that other world is
still merely the movement of thought.
One asks what happens after death. Now ask quite a different
question: What is before death? - not what is after death. What
is before death, which is one's life. What is one's life? Go to
school, to college, university, get a job, man and woman live
together, he goes off to the office for 50 years, she goes off
earning more money, they have children, pain, anxiety, each
fighting. Living such a miserable life one wants to know what is
after death - about which volumes have been written, all
produced by thought, all saying, "Believe". So, if one puts all
that aside, literally, actually, puts it all aside, then what is
one faced with? - the actual fact that oneself who is put
together by thought, comes to an end - all one's anxieties, all
one's longings come to an end. When one is living, as one is
living now, with vigour, with energy, with all the travail of
life, can one live meeting death now? I am living in all vigour,
energy and capacity, and death means an ending to that living.
Now, can I live with death all the time? That is: I am attached
to you; end that attachment, which is death - is it not? One is
greedy and when one dies, one cannot carry greed with one; so
end the greed, not in a week's time, or ten days' time - end it,
now. So one is living a life full of vigour, energy, capacity,
observation, seeing the beauty of the earth and also the ending
of that instantly, which is death. So to live before death is to
live with death; which means that one is living in a timeless
world. One is living a life in which everything that one
acquires is constantly ending, so that there is always a
tremendous movement, one is not fixed in a certain place. This
is not a concept. When one invites death, which means the ending
of everything that one holds, dying to it, each day, each
minute, then one will find - not "one" there is then no oneself
finding it, because one has gone - then there is that state of a
timeless dimension in which the movement we know as time, is
not. It means the emptying of the content of one's consciousness
so that there is no time; time comes to an end, which is death.
Chapter 5
1st Public Talk Brockwood Park
27th August 1977
Action Which Is Skilful and Which Does Not Perpetuate the
Self
We have become very skilful in dealing with our daily life;
skilful, in the sense of being clever in applying a great deal
of knowledge which we have acquired through education and
through experience. We act skilfully, either in a factory, or in
a business and so. That skill becomes, through repetitive
action, routine. Skill, when it is highly developed - as it
should be - leads to self importance and self aggrandizement.
Skill has brought us to our present state, not only
technologically but in our relationships, in the way we deal
with each other - not clearly, not with compassion, but with
skill. Is there an action, in our daily life, which is skilful
yet which does not perpetuate the self, the me, which does not
give importance to oneself and to one's self-centred existence?
Is it possible to act skilfully without strengthening the self?
To answer that one has to enquire into what clarity is; when
there is clarity there is action which is skilful and which does
not perpetuate the self.
Clarity exists only when there is freedom to observe. One is
only capable of observing, looking, watching, when there is
complete and total freedom; otherwise there is always distortion
in the observation. Is it possible to be free of all the
distorting factors in one's outlook? When one observes oneself,
or another, or society, the environment, the whole cultural,
political and religious movements that are going on in the world
- the so-called religious movements - can one do so without any
prejudice, without taking any side, without projecting one's own
personal conclusions, one's beliefs and dogmas, one's experience
and knowledge and be totally free to observe clearly?
One may describe what compassion is in the most eloquent and
poetic manner but in whatever words it is expressed, those words
are not the thing. Without compassion there is no clarity;
without clarity there is no selfless skill - they are
interrelated. Can one have this extraordinary sense of
compassion in one's daily life, not as a theory, not as an
ideal, not something to be achieved, to be practised and so on,
but to have it totally, completely, at the very root of one's
being?
Can there be clarity? One can be very clear in one's thinking,
in its objectivity, rationality, sanity; but such thinking,
however logical, however objective, is very limited. And one
sees that such logical, objective thinking has not solved our
problems; the philosophers, the scientists, the so-called
religious people, have thought very clearly about certain
things, but in daily life, clear thinking has not resolved our
most important issues. One may think very clearly about one's
envy or violence, but that does not bring about the ending of
envy or violence. Clear thinking is limited because it is
thought and thought itself is limited, conditioned. Thought
itself has its own boundary; it may try to go beyond that
boundary by inventing a logo, a deity or a Utopian State and so
on, but these inventions are still limited because thought is
the product of memory, experience and knowledge and it is always
from the past and therefore time-bound. Is it possible to see
the limitations of thought and give it its right place? Giving
the right place to thought brings clarity.
To understand the whole meaning and the depth of compassion one
has to investigate the movement of one's consciousness. Wherever
one goes in the world, east or west, north or south, human
beings have great anxiety and live in uncertainty, always
seeking security in some form or another - physiologically or
psychologically. And they are full of violence, right through
the world; this is an extraordinary phenomenon - violence,
greed, envy, hatred. In consciousness there is the good and the
bad; the bad is increasing; it is increasing because the good
has become static, the good is not flowering. One has accepted
certain patterns of what is thought to be good and one lives
according to those patterns. So, the good, instead of flowering,
is withering and thereby giving strength to the bad. There is
more violence, more hatred, there are more national and
religious divisions, there is every form of antagonism, right
through the world. It is on the increase because the good is not
flowering. Now, be aware of this fact without any effort; the
moment one makes effort one gives importance to the self, which
is the bad. Just observe the actual fact of the bad without any
effort, observe it without any choice - because choice is a
distorting factor. When one observes so openly, so freely, then
the good begins to flower. It is not that one pursues the good
and thereby gives it strength to flower but when the bad, the
evil, the ugly, is understood, completely, the other naturally
flowers.
We have strengthened in our consciousness, through great
development of skill, the structure and the nature of the self.
The self is violence, the self is greed, envy and so on. They
are of the very essence of the self. As long as there is the
centre as the me, every action must be distorted. Acting from a
centre you are giving a direction, and that direction is
distortion. You may develop a great skill in this way but it is
always unbalanced, inharmonious. Now, can consciousness with its
movement undergo a radical transformation, a transformation not
brought about by will? Will is desire, desire for something and
when there is desire there is a motive, which is again a
distorting factor in observation. In our consciousness there is
this duality, the good and the bad. We are always looking with
the eyes of the good and also with the eyes of the bad, so there
is a conflict. Now to eliminate conflict altogether is only
possible when you observe without any choice. Just observe
yourself. In that way you eliminate the conflict between the
good and the bad.
Chapter 6
1st Public Talk Saanen
10th July 1977
Reason and Logic Alone Will Not Discover Truth
Reason and logic have not solved our human problems, and we are
going to find out if there is quite a different approach to all
the problems and travails of life. We shall come upon something
that is beyond reason; for reason has not solved any of our
political, economic or social problems; nor has it solved the
intimate human problems between two people. It becomes more and
more obvious that we live in a world that is going to pieces,
that has become quite insane, quite disorderly and a dangerous
place to live in. Up to a point we must reason together,
logically, sanely, holistically; then, perhaps, beyond that
point, we shall be able to find a different state, a different
quality of mind, not bound by any dogma, by any belief, by any
experience and therefore a mind that is free to observe and
through that observation see exactly "what is" and also find
that there is energy to transform it.
One must not start from any conclusion, from any belief, from
any dogma which conditions the mind, but from a mind that is
free to observe, to learn, to move and act. Such a mind is a
compassionate mind for compassion has no cause; it is not a
result. Compassion comes when the mind is free and it brings
about a fundamental psychological revolution. That psychological
revolution is what we are concerned with from the beginning to
the end.
So we will begin by asking ourselves: What is it that we are
seeking? Physical comfort? Physical security? Deep down, is
there the demand or desire to be totally secure in all our
activities; in all our relationships to be stable, certain,
permanent? We cling to experience that gives us a certain
quality of stability, or to a certain identification which gives
us a sense of permanency, well-being. In a belief there is
security; in identification with a particular dogma, political
or religious, there is security. If we are aged, we find
security or happiness in the remembrance of things past, in the
experiences that we have known, in the love that we have had,
and we cling to the past. And if we are young and cheerful we
are satisfied for the moment, not thinking about the future or
the past. But gradually youth slips into old age with the desire
to be secure, with the anxiety of uncertainty, of not being able
to depend on anything or anybody, yet desiring deeply to have
something secure to cling to.
We have to examine closely whether there is psychological
security at all. And if there is no psychological security will
a human being go insane; will he become totally neurotic,
because he has no security? Probably the majority of human
beings are somewhat neurotic. A Communist, a Catholic,
Protestant or Hindu, each is secure in his belief; he has no
fear because he clings to it. And when you begin to investigate,
or question, or reason with him he stops at a certain point and
will not examine further, it is too dangerous, he feels his
security is being threatened; then communication ceases. He may
reason, think logically up to a certain point but is incapable
of breaking through to a different dimension altogether; he is
stuck in a groove and will not investigate anything else. Does
that really give security? Does thought, which has created all
these beliefs, dogmas, experiences, divisions, give security? We
function with thought; all our activity is based on thought,
horizontal or vertical; whether you are aspiring to great
heights it is the movement of thought vertically; or whether you
are merely satisfied to bring about a social revolution and so
on it is the horizontal movement of thought. So does thought
fundamentally, basically, give security, psychologically?
Thought has its place; but when thought assumes that it can
bring about psychological security then it is living in
illusion. Thought wanting ultimate security has created a thing
called god; and humanity clings to that idea. Thought can create
every kind of romantic illusion. And when the mind,
psychologically, seeks security in the dogma of the Church, or
some other dogmatic assertion, or whatever it is, it is seeking
security in the structure of thought.
Thought is the response of experience and knowledge, stored up
in the brain as memory; that response is therefore always moving
from the past. Now, is there security in the past? Please use
your reason, logic, all your energy to find out. Can any
activity of thought, which is essentially of the past, give
security? Follow the sequence of it; in that which it has
created it seeks security and that security is of the past.
Thought, though it may project the future, says: "I am going to
attain godhood", yet that movement of thought is essentially
from the past. Or, recognizing there is no security in the past,
thought then projects an idea, an idealistic state of mind and
finds security in the hope of that in the future.
A human being, throughout life, depends on thought and the
things that thought has put together as being most essential,
holiness, unholiness, morality, immorality and so on. Someone
comes along and says: "Now look, all that is the movement of the
past." Having reasoned with him, logically, the other says: "Why
not, what is wrong with holding on to thought even though it is
of the past"? He acknowledges it, and says: "I'll hold to it,
what is wrong?" Yet when the human mind lives in the past and
when it holds to the past, then it is incapable of living, or
perceiving truth.
We come to a certain point and we say: "Yes, I see and I
recognize logically, that in those things there is no security
and when they are questioned there is fear." And when we say we
see that, what do we mean by that word "see"? Is it merely a
logical understanding, a verbal understanding, a linear
understanding, or is it an understanding which is so profound
that that very understanding breaks down, without any effort,
the whole movement of thought? When you say: "I understand what
you are saying", what do you mean by that word "understand"? Do
you mean you understand the English words? Is it an
understanding of the words, the meaning of the words, the
explanation of the words and therefore an understanding only at
a very superficial level? Or, is it that, when you say "I
understand", you mean you actually "see", or observe the truth
as to what thought is; you actually feel, taste, observe in your
blood as it were, that thought, whatever it creates, has no
security? You "see" the truth of it and therefore you are free
of it. Seeing the truth of it is intelligence. Such intelligence
is not reason, logic, or the very careful dialectical
explanation; the latter is merely the exposition of thought in
various forms; and thought is never intelligent. The perception
of the truth is intelligence; and in that intelligence there is
complete security. That intelligence is not yours or mine; that
intelligence is not conditioned - we have finished with all
that. We have seen that thought in its very movement creates
conditioning and when you understand that movement, that very
understanding is intelligence. In that intelligence there is
security, from that there is action.
We may talk about this question in different ways, in different
fields, such as fear, pleasure, sorrow, death, meditation, but
the essence of it is this: thought is the movement from the
past, therefore of time and therefore measurable. That which is
measurable can never find the immeasurable, which is truth. That
can only take place when the mind actually sees the truth that
whatever thought has created, in that there is no security; the
very observation of that is intelligence. When there is that
intelligence then it is all finished. Then you are out of this
world, though you are living in it; though trying to do
something in it, you are completely an outsider.
Chapter 7
1st Public Talk Ojai California
2nd April 1977
Intelligence, in Which There Is Complete Security
Wherever one goes in the world, India, Europe and America, one
sees great sorrow, violence, wars, terrorism, killing, drugs -
every kind of stupidity. One accepts these as though inevitable
and easily puts up with them, or one revolts against them; but
revolt is a reaction, as Communism is a reaction to Capitalism
or Fascism.
So, without revolting, without going against everything and
forming one's own little group, or without following a guru from
India or from elsewhere, without accepting any kind of authority
- because in spiritual matters there is no authority - can we
investigate these problems that human beings have had, centuries
upon centuries, generation after generation, these conflicts,
uncertainties, travails, all the things that human beings go
through during life only to end in death, without understanding
what it is all about?
Psychologically, inwardly, every human being, whoever he is, is
the world. The world is represented in oneself and oneself is
the world. That is a psychological, absolute fact; though one
may have a white skin and another a brown or black skin, be
affluent or very poor, yet inwardly, deep down, we are all the
same; we suffer loneliness, sorrow, conflict, misery, confusion;
we depend on someone to tell us what to do, how to think, what
to think; we are slaves to propaganda from the various political
parties and religions, and so on. That is what is happening all
over the world inwardly; deep down, we are slaves to the
propaganda of the experts, of the governments and so on, we are
conditioned human beings, whether we live in India, Europe or
America.
So, one is actually, psychologically, the world and the world is
oneself. Once one realizes this fact, not verbally, not
ideologically or as an escape from fact, but actually, deeply
feel the fact, realize the fact, that one is not different from
the other - however far away he is - inwardly he suffers greatly
and is terribly frightened, uncertain, insecure, then one is not
concerned with one's little self, one is concerned with the
total human being. One is concerned with the total human being -
not with Mr X or Y or somebody else - but with the total
psychological entity as a human being, wherever he lives. He is
conditioned in a particular way; he may be a Catholic, a
Protestant, or he may be conditioned by thousands of years of
certain kinds of beliefs, superstitions, ideas and gods, as in
India, but below that conditioning, in the depth of his mind,
when alone, he is facing the same life of sorrow, pain, grief
and anxiety. When one sees this as an actual, irrevocable fact,
then one begins to think entirely differently and one begins to
observe, not as an individual person having troubles and
anxieties, but whole, entire. It gives one an extraordinary
strength and vitality; one is not alone, one is the entire
history of mankind - if one knows how to read that history which
is enshrined in one. This is not rhetoric but a serious factor
one is deeply concerned with, a fact which one denies, because
one thinks one is so individualistic. One is so concerned with
oneself, with one's petty problems, with one's little guru, with
one's little beliefs; but when one realizes this extraordinary
fact, then it gives one tremendous strength and a great urgency
to investigate and transform oneself, because one is mankind.
When there is such transformation, one affects the whole
consciousness of man because one is the entire humanity; when
one changes fundamentally, deeply, when there is this
psychological revolution in one, then naturally, as one is part
of the total consciousness of the human being, which is the rest
of humanity, its consciousness is affected. So, one is concerned
to penetrate the layers of one's consciousness and to
investigate whether it is possible to transform the content of
that consciousness so that out of that transformation a
different dimension of energy and clarity may come into being.
A human being, who is representative of the world, who is the
world, psychologically, what is his innermost demand? In one
part of his consciousness it is to find both biological and
psychological security; he must have food, clothes and shelter -
that is an absolute necessity. But also he demands, craves, and
searches for psychological security - to have psychological
certainty about everything. The whole struggle in the world,
both physiologically and psychologically, is to find security.
Security means physical permanency, physically to be well, to
continue, advance, grow, and also it means psychological
permanency. Everything, psychologically, if one observes very
carefully, is very impermanent; one's relationships,
psychologically, are most uncertain. One may be temporarily
secure in one's relationship with another, man or woman, but it
is only temporary. That very temporary security is the ground of
complete insecurity.
So one asks: is there any security, psychologically, at all? One
seeks psychological security in the family - the family being
the wife, the children. There one tries to find a relationship
that will be secure, lasting, permanent - all relative, because
there is always death. And, not always finding it - there are
divorces, quarrels and all the misery, jealousies, anger, hatred
that goes on - one tries to find security in a community, with a
group of people, large or small. One tries to find security in
the nation - I'm an American, I'm a Hindu - that gives a
tremendous sense of apparent security. But when one tries to
find security, psychologically, in a nation, that nation is
divided from another nation. Where there is division between
nations - in one of which one has invested psychologically one's
security - there are wars, there are economic pressures. That is
what is actually going on in the world.
If one seeks security in an ideology - the Communist ideology,
the Capitalist ideology, the religious ideologies, with their
dogmas, images - there is division; one believes in one set of
ideals which one likes, which give one comfort, in which one
seeks security with a group of people who believe the same
thing, yet another group believes another thing and from them
one is divided. Religions have divided people. The Christians,
the Buddhists, the Hindus, the Muslims, divide; they are at each
other, each believing something extraordinary, romantic,
unrealistic, unreal, not factual.
Seeing all this - not as something to be avoided or to become
supercilious or intellectual about - seeing all this very
clearly, one asks, is there psychological security at all? And,
if there is no psychological security, then does it become
chaos? One loses one's identity - one has been identified with a
nation, America, or with Jesus, with Buddha and so on - when
reason, logic, makes it clear how absurd all this is. Does one
despair because one has observed the fallacy of these divisive
processes, the unreality of these fictions, myths, fantasies
which have no basis? The very perception of all this is
intelligence - not the intelligence of a clever, cunning mind,
not the intelligence of book knowledge, but the intelligence
which comes out of clear observation. In that intelligence,
brought about this clear observation, there is security; that
very intelligence is secure.
But one will not let go, one is too afraid to let go lest one
does not find security. One can let go of being a Catholic,
Protestant, Communist, and so on, fairly easily. But when one
does let go, when one cleanses oneself of all this, either one
does it as a reaction, or one does it because one has observed
intelligently, holistically, with great clarity, the absurdity
of the fantasies and the make-belief. Because one observes
without any distortion, because one is not out to get something
from it, because one is not thinking in terms of punishment and
reward, because one observes very clearly, then that very
clarity of perception is intelligence. In that there is
extraordinary security - not that you become secure, but
intelligence is secure.
One has come to the absolute fact - not relative fact - the
absolute fact that there is no psychological security in
anything that man has invented; one sees that all our religions
are inventions, put together by thought. When one sees that all
our divisive endeavours, which come about when there are
beliefs, dogmas, rituals, which are the whole substance of
religion, when one sees all that very clearly, not as an idea,
but as a fact, then that very fact reveals the extraordinary
quality of intelligence in which there is complete, whole
security.
Chapter 8
4th Public Talk Saanen
17th July 1977
In Negation the Positive Is Born
We are dealing with the facts of daily life, our way of living.
Most of us abstract from those facts ideas and conclusions which
become our prisons. We may ventilate those prisons but still we
live there and go on making further abstractions of facts there.
We are not dealing with ideas, exotic philosophies, or with
abstract conclusions. We are going into problems that require a
great deal of care and about which we must be very serious -
because the house is burning. The Communist world is pressing in
all the time, constraining us to believe in certain ideologies
and if we do not we can be sent either to a concentration camp
or a mental hospital. That is gradually closing in. If you are
aware of the world situation, of what is happening in the world
economically, socially, politically, of the preparation for
wars, you become extremely serious; it is not a thing to play
around with, you have to act.
Most of us are mediocre - we just go half way up the hill.
Excellence means going to the very top of it and we are asking
for excellence. Otherwise we shall be smothered, destroyed, as
human beings, by the politicians, by the ideologists, whether
they are Communists, Socialists and so on. We are demanding of
ourselves the highest form of excellence. That excellence can
only come into being when there is clarity and compassion
without which the human mind will destroy human beings, destroy
the world.
We are exercising reason, clear objective thinking, and logic,
but they themselves do not bring about compassion. We must
exercise the qualities that we have, which are reason, careful
observation and from those the excellency of clear sight to
examine the various contents of consciousness, in which
compassion does not exist; there may be pity in them, sympathy
and tolerance, there may be the desire to help, there may be a
form of love, but all these are not compassion.
Is compassion or love, pleasure? What is the significance and
the meaning of pleasure, which every human being is seeking and
pursuing at any cost? What is pleasure? There is the pleasure
derived from possessions; the pleasure derived from a capacity
or talent; the pleasure when you dominate another; the pleasure
of having tremendous power, politically, religiously or
economically; the pleasure of sex; the pleasure of the great
sense of freedom that money gives. There are multiple forms of
pleasure. In pleasure there is enjoyment, and further on there
is ecstasy, the taking delight in something and the sense of
ecstasy. "Ecstasy" is to be beyond yourself. There is no self to
enjoy. The self - that is the me, the ego, the personality - has
all totally disappeared, there is only that sense of being
outside. That is ecstasy. But that ecstasy has nothing
whatsoever to do with pleasure.
You take a delight in something; the delight that comes
naturally when you look at something very beautiful. At that
moment, at that second, there is neither pleasure, nor joy,
there is only that sense of observation. In that observation the
self is not. When you look at a mountain with its snow cap, with
its valleys, its grandeur and magnificence, all thought is
driven away. There it is, that greatness in front of you and
there is delight. Then thought comes along registering as memory
what a marvellous and lovely experience it was. Then that
registration, that memory, is cultivated and that cultivation
becomes pleasure. Whenever thought interferes with the sense of
beauty, the sense of the greatness of anything, a piece of
poetry, a sheet of water, or a lonely tree in a field, it is
registration. But, to see it and not register it - that is
important. The moment you register it, the beauty of it, then
that very registration sets thought into action; then the desire
to pursue that beauty, which becomes the pursuit of pleasure.
One sees a beautiful woman, or man; instantly it is registered
in the brain; then that very registration sets thought into
motion and you want to be in her or his company and all that
follows. Pleasure is the continuation and the cultivation in
thought of a perception. You have had sexual experience last
night, or two weeks ago, you remember it and desire the
repetition of it, which is the demand for pleasure.
It is the function of the brain to register; in registration it
is secure, it knows what to do and from that there is the
development of skill. That skill in its turn becomes a great
pleasure as a talent, a gift; it is the movement, the
continuation of thought through desire and pleasure. Is it
possible to register only that which is absolutely necessary and
not register anything else? Take a very simple thing: most of us
have had physical pain of some sort or another; that pain is
registered and the brain says, tomorrow, or a week later, I must
be very careful not to have that pain again. Physical pain is
distorting; you cannot think clearly when there is great pain.
It is the function of the brain to register that pain so as to
safeguard itself from doing things that will bring about pain.
It must register and then there is the fear of that pain
happening again later - that registration has caused fear. Is it
possible, having had that pain, to end it, not carry it on, not
carry it over? If so, then the brain has the security of being
free and intelligent; but the moment the pain is carried over it
is never free.
Is it possible to register only the things that are absolutely
necessary? The necessary things are the knowledge of how to
drive a car, how to speak a language, technological knowledge,
the knowledge of reading, writing and so on. But in our human
relationships, those between man and woman for example, every
incident in that relationship is registered. What takes place?
The woman is irritated, nags, or is friendly, kindly, or says
something just before the man goes off to the office, which is
ugly; so from this there is built up, through registration, an
image about her and she builds an image about him - this is
factual. In human relationships, between man and woman, or
between neighbours and so on, there is registration and the
process of image making. But when the husband says something
ugly listen to it carefully, end it, do not carry it on; then
you will find that there is no image-making at all. If there is
no image-making between a man and a woman the relationship is
entirely different; there is no longer the relationship of one
thought opposed to another thought - which is called
relationship, which actually it is not; it is just ideas.
Pleasure follows registration of an incident in the continuation
given by thought. Thought is the root of pleasure. If you had no
thought and you saw a beautiful thing it would rest at that. But
thought says: "No I must have that"; from this flows the whole
movement of thought.
What is the relationship of pleasure to joy? Joy comes to you
uninvited, it happens. You are walking along in a street, or
sitting in a bus, or wandering in the woods, seeing the flowers,
the hills, and the clouds and the blue sky and suddenly there is
the extraordinary feeling of great joy; then comes the
registration, thought says: "What a marvellous thing that was, I
must have more of it." So, again joy is made into pleasure by
thought. This is seeing things as they are, not as you want them
to be; it is seeing them exactly, without any distortion, seeing
what is taking place.
What is love? Is it pleasure; which is the continuation of an
incident through the movement of thought? Is the movement of
thought love? Is love remembrance? A thing has happened and
living in its remembrance, feeling that remembrance of something
which is over, resuscitating it and saying, "What a marvellous
thing that was when we were together under that tree; that was
love" - all that is the remembrance of a thing that is gone. Is
that love? Is love the pleasure of sex? - in which there is
tenderness, kindliness and so on - is that love? That is not to
say that it is, or that it is not.
We are questioning everything that man has put together of which
he says: "This is love." If love is pleasure then it gives
emphasis to the remembrance of past things and therefore brings
about the importance of the me - my pleasure, my excitement, my
remembrances. Is that love? And is love desire? What is desire?
One desires a car; one desires a house; one desires prominence,
power, position. There are infinite things one desires; to be as
beautiful as you are; to be as intelligent, as clever, as smart
as you are. Does desire bring clarity?
The thing that is called love is based on desire - desire to
sleep with a woman, or sleep with a man, desire to possess her,
dominate her, control her, "she is mine, not yours." Is love in
the pleasure derived in that possession, in that dominance? Man
dominates the world and now there is woman fighting the
domination.
What is desire? Does desire bring about clarity? In its field
does compassion flower? If it does not bring clarity and if
desire is not the field in which the beauty and the greatness of
compassion flower, then what place has desire? How does desire
arise? One sees a beautiful woman, or a beautiful man - one
sees. There is the perception, the seeing, then the contact,
then the sensation, then that sensation is taken over by
thought, which becomes the image with its desire. You see a
beautiful vase, a beautiful sculpture - ancient Egyptian, or
Greek - and you look at it and you touch it; you see the depth
of sculpture of the figure sitting cross-legged. From that there
is a sensation. What a marvellous thing and from that sensation
desire; "I wish I had that in my room; to look at it every day,
touch it every day" - the pride of possession, to have such a
marvellous thing as that. That is desire: seeing, contact,
sensation, then thought using that sensation to cultivate the
desire to possess - or not to possess.
Now comes the difficulty: realizing this the religious people
have said: "Take vows of celibacy; do not look at a woman; if
you do look treat her as your sister, mother, whatever you like;
because you are in the service of God you need all your energy
to serve Him; in the service of God you are going to have great
tribulations, therefore be prepared, but do not waste your
energy." But the thing is boiling and we are trying to
understand that desire which is constantly boiling, wanting to
fulfil, wanting to complete itself.
Desire arises from the movement - seeing - contact - sensation -
thought with its image - desire. Now we are saying: seeing -
touching - sensation, that is normal, healthy - end it there, do
not let thought take it over and make it into a desire.
Understand this and then you will also understand that there
will be no suppression of desire. You see a beautiful house,
well proportioned with lovely windows, a roof that melts into
the sky, walls that are thick and part of the earth, a beautiful
garden, well kept. You look at it, there is sensation; you touch
it - you may not actually touch it but you touch it with your
eyes - you smell the air, the herbs, the newly-cut grass. Can
you not end it there? End it there, say: "It is a beautiful
house"; but there is no registration and no thought which says:
"I wish I had that house" - which is desire and the continuation
of desire. You can do this so easily; and I mean easily, if you
understand the nature of thought and desire.
Is thought love? Does thought cultivate love? It is not
pleasure, it is not desire, it is not remembrance, although they
have their places. Then what is love? Is love jealousy? Is love
a sense of possession, my wife, my husband, my girl -
possession? Has love within it fear? It is none of these things,
entirely wipe them all away, end them, putting them all in their
right place - then love is.
Through negation the positive is - through negation; that is: is
pleasure love? - you examine pleasure and see it is not that -
though pleasure has its place it is not that - so you negate
that. You see it is not remembrance though remembrance is
necessary; so put remembrance in its right place, therefore you
have negated remembrance as not being love. You have negated
desire, though desire has a certain place. Therefore through
negation the positive is. But we, on the contrary, posit the
positive and then get caught in the negative. One must begin
with doubt - completely doubting - then you end up with
certainty. But if you start with certainty, then you end up in
uncertainty and chaos.
So in negation the positive is born.
Chapter 9
7th Public Talk Saanen
24th July 1977
Because There Is Space, There Is Emptiness and Total
Silence
Time, for us, is very important, both chronologically and
psychologically. We depend so much on psychological time. Time
is related to movement - from here to there takes time. A
distance to be covered, to arrive at a goal, to fulfil a
purpose, requires time.
To learn a language requires time. That has been carried over
into the psychological field: "We need time to be perfect; we
need time to get over something; we need time to be free of our
anxieties; to be free of our sorrow; to be free of our fears and
so on." Time is needed in practical matters, in the field of
technology and so on and that need for time has been introduced
into our psychological life and we have accepted it. To wipe
away our nationalities, to become brotherly we think we need
time. Psychological time implies hope; the world is mad, let us
hope in the future there will be a sane world. We are
questioning whether there is such a thing as psychological time
at all. We ask: Is there an action in which time is not involved
at all? Action arising from a cause, a motive, needs time.
Action based on a pattern of memory needs time to put into
action. If you have an ideal, however noble, however beautiful
and romantic, however nonsensical even, you need time to arrive
at that idealistic state. And to arrive at that you destroy the
present. It does not matter what happens to you now; what is
important is the future. For the sake of the future sacrifice
yourself now - some marvellous future established by the
ideologists, the religious teachers and so on throughout the
world. We question that and ask whether there is any
psychological time at all and therefore no hope. "What shall I
do if I have no hope?" Hope is so important because it gives you
satisfaction, energy, drive to achieve something.
When one looks closely, non-sentimentally, logically, is there
psychological time at all? There is psychological time only when
one moves away from "what is". There is psychological time when
one realizes that one is violent and then proceeds to enquire
how to be free of it; that movement away from "what is" is time.
But if one is totally and completely aware of "what is", then
there is no such time.
Most of us are violent. Violence is not only hitting somebody
physically, but anger, jealousy, acceptance of authority,
conformity, imitation, accepting the edicts of another. Human
beings are violent; that is the fact - violence. The very word
"violence" condemns it. By the very usage of the word "violence"
you have already condemned violence. See the intricacies of
this. Being violent and being negligent, or lazy, we move away
from it and invent ideological non-violence. That is time - the
movement from "what is" to "what should be". That time comes to
an end, completely, when there is only "what is" - which is
non-verbal identification with "what is". Anger is a form of
violence, or hatred, jealousy. The words "anger", "hatred" or
"jealousy" in themselves are condemnatory; they are
verbalizations which strengthen by reaction. When I say "I am
angry," I have recognized from past angers the present anger, so
I am using the word "anger" which is of the past and identifying
that word with the present. The word has become extraordinarily
important; yet if there is no usage of the word so that there is
only the fact, the reaction, then there is no strengthening of
that feeling.
Is it possible to live, psychologically, without tomorrow? To
say: "I love you, I will meet you tomorrow", that affection is
in memory projected towards tomorrow. Is there an activity
without time at all? Love is not time; it is not a remembrance.
If it is, it is not love, obviously. "I love you because you
gave me sex; or you gave me food, or flattered me; or you said
you needed a companion; I am lonely therefore I need you" - all
that is not love, surely? When there is jealousy, when there is
anxiety or hatred, that is not love. So then what is love? Love
is obviously a state of mind in which there is no verbalization,
no remembrance, but something immediate.
There is a way of living, in daily life, where time as movement
from this state to that, has gone. What happens when you do
that? You have an extraordinary vitality, an extraordinary sense
of clarity. You are then only dealing with facts, not with
ideas. But as most of us are imprisoned in ideas and have
accepted that way of life, it is very difficult to break away.
But, have an insight into it, then it is finished.
Our minds are so cluttered up, with knowledge, with worries,
with problems, with money, with position and prestige; they are
so burdened that there is no space at all; yet without space
there is no order.
When I look at this valley from a height and there is a
direction because I want to see where I live, then I lose the
vastness of space. Where there is direction space is limited.
Where there is a purpose, a goal, something to be achieved,
there is no space. If you have a purpose in life for which you
are living, concentrating, where is there space? Whereas if
there is no concentration there is vast space.
When there is a centre from which we look, then space is very
limited. When there is no centre, that is to say, no structure
of the me which has been put together by thought, there is vast
space. Without space there is no order, there is no clarity,
there is no compassion.
Living where there is no effort, where there is no action of
will, where there is tremendous space, is part of meditation.
So far we have only dealt with the waves on the surface of the
ocean. You have only dealt with the superficiality of it. Now,
if you have gone so far you can go into the depth of the ocean -
of course you must understand how to dive deeply; not you dive,
it comes about.
There is concentration, choiceless awareness and attention.
Concentration implies resistance. Concentration on a particular
thing, on the page you are reading, or on the phrase you are
trying to understand: to concentrate is to put all your energy
in a particular direction. In concentration there is resistance
and therefore effort and division. You want to concentrate,
thought goes off on something else, you bring it back - the
fight. If you are interested in something you concentrate very
easily. Implied in the word concentrate is putting your mind on
a particular object, a particular picture, a particular action.
Choiceless awareness is to be aware both externally and
inwardly, without any choice. Just to be aware of the trees, the
mountains, nature, just to be aware. Not choose, saying, "I like
this", "I don't like that", or "I want this", "I don't want
that". It is to observe without the observer. The observer is
the past, which is conditioned, always looking from that
conditioned point of view, therefore there is like and dislike
and so on. To be choicelessly aware implies observing the whole
environment around you, the mountains, the trees, also the ugly
world and the towns; just to be aware, observe and in that
observation there is no decision, no will, no choice.
In attention there is no centre, there is no me attending. When
there is no me which limits attention then attention is
limitless; attention has limitless space.
After understanding all the waves on the surface - fear,
authority, all the petty affairs compared to that which we are
going into - the mind has then emptied consciousness of the
whole of its content. It is empty; not through action of will,
not through desire, not through choice. Consciousness, then, is
totally different, is of a totally different dimension.
Because there is space there is emptiness and total silence -
not induced silence, not practised silence; which are all just
the movement of thought and therefore absolutely worthless. When
you have gone through all this - and there is great delight in
going through all this, it is like playing a tremendous game -
then in that total silence there is a movement which is
timeless, which is not measured by thought - thought has no
place in it whatsoever - then there is something totally sacred,
timeless.
Chapter 10
5th Public Talk Saanen
19th July 1977
The State of The Mind That Has Insight Is Completely
Empty
An awakened intelligence has a deep, true, insight into all our
psychological problems, crises, blockages and so on; not
intellectual comprehension, not the resolving of problems
through conflict. Having an insight into a human issue is to
awaken this intelligence; or, having this intelligence, there is
the insight - both ways. In such insight there is no conflict;
when you see something very clearly, when you see the truth of
the matter, there is the end of it, you do not fight against it,
you do not try to control, you do not make all manner of
calculated, motivated, efforts. From that insight, which is
intelligence, there is action - not postponed action but
immediate action.
We are educated from childhood to exercise, as deeply as
possible, every form of effort. If you observe yourself you will
see what tremendous efforts we make to control ourselves, to
suppress, adjust and modify ourselves to certain patterns or
objectives that you or another have established; so there is
constant struggle. We live with it and we die with it. And we
ask: Is it possible to live our daily life without a single
conflict?
Most of us are awakened to all the problems, political,
religious, economic, social, ideological and so on, in which we
live. Being somewhat aware of all that most of us are
discontent. When you are young, this dissatisfaction becomes
like a flame and you have a passion to do something. So you join
some political party, the extreme Left, the extreme
revolutionary, the extreme forms of "Jesus freaks" and so on and
so on. By joining these things, by adopting certain attitudes,
certain ideologies, that flame of discontent fades away and you
then appear to be satisfied. You say: "This is what I want to
do" and you pour your heart into it. But gradually you find, if
you are at all awake to the problems involved, that you are not
satisfied. It is too late; you have already given half your life
to something which you thought would be completely worthwhile
and you have found later on that it is not so; then your energy,
capacity and drive has withered away. Gradually the real flame
of discontent has withered away. You must have noticed the
pattern that has been followed all the time, generation after
generation, in yourself, in your children, in the young and the
old.
But if you are alive to all these things and are discontented
and if you do not allow this discontent to be squashed by the
desire to be satisfied, by the desire to adjust oneself to the
environment, to the "establishment", or to an ideal, to a
Utopia, if you allow this flame to keep on burning, not being
satisfied with anything, then the superficial satisfactions have
no place; then this very dissatisfaction is demanding something
much greater and the ideals, the gurus, the religions, the
"establishment", become totally superficial. This flame of
discontent, because it has no outlet, because it has no object
in which it can fulfil itself, that flame becomes a great
passion. That passion is intelligence. If you are not caught in
these superficial, essentially reactionary things, then that
extraordinary flame is intensified. That intensity brings about
a quality of mind having a deep insight instantly into things,
and from that there is action.
Such dissatisfaction does not make you neurotic or bring about
imbalance. There is imbalance only when this dissatisfaction is
translated, or caught in a trap of some kind or another; then
there is distortion, then there are all kinds of fights,
inwardly.
If you have been caught in these various traps, can you put them
aside, wipe them out, destroy them? - do what you like, but have
this tremendous flame of discontent now. It does not mean that
you throw bombs at people, destroy, indulge in physical
revolution and riots. When you put aside all the traps that man
has created around you and that you have created for yourself,
then this flame becomes a supreme intelligence. And that
intelligence gives you insight. And when you have insight, from
that there is immediate action.
Action is not tomorrow. There is an action without cause; it has
been a problem for many great thinkers; action without cause,
action without motive, action not dependent on some ideology.
One of the demands of serious people is to find out if there is
an action which is per se, for itself; which is without cause
and motive. See what is implied in it: no regrets, no retention
of those regrets and all the sequence that follows from those
regrets, such action does not depend on some past or future
ideology; it is an action which is always free. It is an action
that is only possible when there is insight born of
intelligence.
Most people would say that there must be conflict otherwise
there is no growth; that conflict is part of life. A tree in a
forest struggles to reach the sun; that is a form of conflict.
Every animal is in conflict. And we human beings, supposed to be
intelligent, are yet constantly in conflict. Now discontent
says: "Why should I be in conflict?" Conflict implies
comparison, imitation, conformity, adjustment to a pattern, the
modified continuity of what has been, through the present, to
the future - all a process of conflict. The deeper the conflict
the more neurotic you become. And so, in order to have respite
from conflict you believe most deeply in God, saying: "His will
be done" - and we create this monstrous world.
Conflict implies comparison. Can one live without comparison?
which means no ideal, no authority of a pattern, no conformity
to a particular ideology. It implies freedom from the prison of
ideas so that there is no comparison, no imitation, no
conformity; therefore you are stuck with "what is" - actually
what is. Comparison comes only when you compare "what is" with
"what should be", or "what might be", or try to transform "what
is" into something which it is not and all this implies
conflict.
To live without comparison is to remove a tremendous burden. If
you remove the burden of comparison, imitation, conformity,
adjustment, modification, then you are left with "what is".
Conflict arises only when you try to do something with "what
is", try to transform it, to modify it, to change it, or to
suppress it, run away from it. But if you have an insight into
"what is" then conflict ceases; you are left with "what is". And
what happens to "what is"? What is the state of your mind when
you are looking at "what is"? What is the state of your mind
when you are not escaping, not trying to transform, or deform
"what is"? What is the state of that mind that is looking and
has insight? The state of the mind that has insight is
completely empty. It is free from escapes, free from
suppression, analysis and so on. When all these burdens are
taken away - because you see the absurdity of them, it is like
taking away a heavy burden - there is freedom. Freedom implies
an emptiness to observe. That emptiness gives you insight into
violence - not the various forms of violence, but the whole
nature of violence and the structure of violence; therefore
there is immediate action about violence, which is to be free,
completely, from all violence.
Chapter 11
5th Public Talk Saanen
19th July 1977
Where There Is Suffering You Cannot Possibly Love
We say that love is part of suffering. When you love somebody it
brings about suffering. We are going to question whether it is
possible to be free of all suffering. When there is freedom from
suffering in the consciousness of the human being then that
freedom brings about a transformation in consciousness and that
transformation affects the whole of mankind's suffering. That is
part of compassion.
Where there is suffering you cannot possibly love. That is a
truth, a law. When you love somebody and he or she does
something of which you totally disapprove and you suffer, it
shows that you do not love. See the truth of it. How can you
suffer when your wife throws you away and goes after somebody
else? Yet we suffer from that. We get angry, jealous, envious,
hateful; at the same time we say, "I love my wife"! Such love is
not love. So, is it possible not to suffer and yet have the
flowering of immense love?
What is the nature and the essence of suffering - the essence of
it, not the various forms of it? What is the essence of
suffering? Is it not the total expression, at that moment, of
complete self-centred existence? It is the essence of the me -
the essence of the ego, the person, the limited, enclosed,
resisting existence, which is called the "me". When there is an
incident that demands understanding and insight, that is denied
by the awakening of the me, the essence which is the cause of
suffering. If there were no me, would there be suffering? One
would help, one would do all kinds of things, but one would not
suffer.
Suffering is the expression of the me; it includes self-pity,
loneliness, trying to escape, trying to be with the other who is
gone - and all else that is implied. Suffering is the very me,
which is the image, the knowledge, the remembrance of the past.
So, what relationship has suffering, the essence of the me, to
love? Is there any relationship between love and suffering? The
me is put together by thought: but is love put together by
thought?
Is love put together by thought? - the memories of the pains,
the delights, and the pursuit of pleasure, sexual or otherwise,
of the pleasure of possessing somebody and somebody liking to be
possessed; all that is the structure of thought. The me with its
name, with its form, its memory, is put together by thought -
obviously. But if love is not put together by thought, then
suffering has no relationship to love. Therefore action from
love is different from action from suffering.
What place has thought in relation to love and in relation to
suffering? To have an insight into it means you are neither
escaping, wanting comfort, frightened to be lonely, isolated; it
means therefore your mind is free and that which is free is
empty. If you have that emptiness you have an insight into
suffering. Then suffering as the me disappears. There is
immediate action because that is so; action then is from love,
not from suffering.
One discovers that action from suffering is the action of the me
and that therefore there is constant conflict. One can see the
logic of it all, the reason for it. Only so is it possible to
love without a shadow of suffering. Thought is not love; thought
is not compassion. Compassion is intelligence - which is not the
outcome of thought. What is the action of intelligence? If one
has intelligence it is operating, it is functioning, it is
acting. But if one asks: What is the action of intelligence? -
one merely wants thought to be satisfied. When one asks: What is
the action of compassion? - is it not thought that is asking? Is
it not the me that is saying: If I could have this compassion I
would act differently? Therefore when one puts such questions
one is still caught in terms of thought; But with an insight
into thought then thought has its right place and intelligence
then acts.
Chapter 12
3rd Public Talk Brockwood Park
3rd September 1977
Sorrow Is the Outcome of Time and Thought
We are concerned with the whole existence of man and whether a
human being can ever be free from his travail, his efforts, his
anxieties, violence and brutality, and whether there is an end
to sorrow.
Why have human beings, throughout the ages, sustained and put up
with suffering? Can there be an ending to it all?
One must be free of all ideologies. Ideologies are dangerous
illusions, whether they are political, social, religious, or
personal. Every form of ideology either ends up in
totalitarianism, or in religious conditioning - as the Catholic,
the Protestant, the Hindu, the Buddhist and so on; and
ideologies become such great burdens. So, to go into the
enormous question of suffering, one must be free from all
ideologies. One may have experienced a great deal of suffering
which may have brought about certain definite conclusions. But
to enquire into this question one must be utterly free of all
conclusions.
Obviously there is biological, physical, suffering, and that
suffering may distort the mind if one is not very careful. But
we are concerned with the psychological suffering of man. In
investigating suffering we are investigating the suffering of
all mankind, because each one of us is of the essence of all
humanity; each one of us is, psychologically, inwardly, deeply,
like the rest of mankind.
They suffer, they go through great anxiety, uncertainty,
confusion, violence, through great sense of grief, loss,
loneliness, as each one of us does. There is no division,
psychologically, between us all. We are the world,
psychologically, and the world is us. That is not a conviction,
that is not a conclusion, that is not an intellectual theory,
but an actuality, to be felt, to be realized and to be lived.
investigating this question of sorrow one is investigating not
only one's own personal limited sorrow but also the sorrow of
mankind. Do not reduce it to a personal thing, because when one
sees the enormous suffering of mankind, in the understanding of
the enormity of it, the wholeness of it, then one's own part has
a role in it. It is not a selfish enquiry concerned with how I
am to be free of sorrow. If one makes it personal, limited, then
one will not understand the full significance of the enormity of
sorrow.
In opposition to sorrow there is happiness, as in one's
consciousness there is the bad and the good. In one's
consciousness there is sorrow and a sense of happiness. In
enquiring one is not concerned with sorrow as an opposite to
happiness, gladness, enjoyment; but with sorrow itself. The
opposites contain each other. If the good is the outcome of the
bad, then the good contains the bad. And if sorrow is the
opposite of happiness, then the enquiry into sorrow has its root
in happiness. We are enquiring into sorrow per se, not as an
opposite to something else.
It is important to understand how one observes the nature and
the movement of sorrow. How does one look at one's sorrow? If
one looks at it as though it was different from oneself then
there is a division between oneself and that which one calls
sorrow. But is that sorrow different from oneself? Is the
observer of sorrow different from sorrow itself? Or is it that
the observer is sorrow? It is not that he is free from sorrow
and then looks at sorrow, or identifies with sorrow. Sorrow is
not just in the field of the observer; he is sorrow. The
observer is the observed. The experiencer is the experienced;
just as the thinker is the thought. There is no division as when
the observer says "I am in sorrow", and who then divides himself
off and tries to do something about sorrow - run away from it;
seek comfort; suppress it; and all the various means of
attempting to transcend sorrow. Whereas, if one sees that the
observer is the observed, which is a fact, then one eliminates
altogether the division that brings about conflict. One has been
brought up, educated, to think that the observer is something
totally different from the observed; as for example: one is the
analyser therefore one can analyse - but the analyser is the
analysed. So in this perception there is no division between the
observer and the observed, between the thinker and the thought -
there is no thought without the thinker - if there is no thinker
there is no thought - they are one.
So if one sees that the observer is the observed, then one is
not dictating what sorrow is, one is not telling sorrow what it
should be, or not be, one is just observing without any choice,
without any movement of thought.
There are various kinds of sorrow; the man who has no work; the
man who will always remain poor, the man who will never enjoy
clean clothes or a fresh bath - as happens among the poor. There
is the sorrow of ignorance, the sorrow when children are
maltreated, the sorrow when animals are killed - vivisection and
so on. There is the sorrow of war, which affects the whole of
mankind. There is the sorrow when someone whom you love, dies.
There is the sorrow of the desire to fulfil and the ensuing
failure and frustration. So, there are multiple kinds of sorrow.
Does one deal with all the multiple expressions of sorrow
piecemeal? Or does one deal with the root of sorrow as a whole?
Does one take each expression of the hundreds of varieties of
sorrow? Or go to the very root of sorrow? If one takes all the
multiple expressions of sorrow there will be no end. One may
trim them individually, diminish them, but more will always
remain. Can one look at the multiple branches of sorrow and
through that observation go into the very root of sorrow, from
the outside go inside and examine what is at the root, the
cause? If one does not end sorrow there is no love in one's
heart - although one may pity others and be troubled by the
slaughter that is going on.
What is sorrow? Why does one suffer? Is it that one has lost
something that one had? Or is there suffering because one has
been promised a reward and that reward has not been given? -
because we are educated through reward and punishment. Does one
suffer because of self-pity? Because one has not the things that
another has? Does one suffer through comparison, measurement?
Does one suffer because, through limitation, one has not been
able to achieve that which one is trying to imitate - trying to
conform to a pattern and never reaching that pattern fully,
completely? So one asks very deeply: What is suffering and why
does one suffer?
One must be very careful in examination to see whether the word
"sorrow" itself weighs down on man. Sorrow has been praised,
romanticized. It has been made into something that is essential
in order to find reality - one must go through suffering to find
love, pity, compassion. We seek through suffering a reward. Does
not the word "sorrow" bring about the feeling of sorrow? Or,
independent of that word and the stimulation of that word, the
reaction of that word, is there sorrow by itself? If this
examination is a matter of tremendous crisis in one's life, as
it must be, then, when there is sorrow, it is a challenge and
aIl one's energy is brought into being - otherwise one
dissipates that energy by running away, seeking comfort,
inventing explanations such as karma and so on. It is a
challenge: What is sorrow? Is there an ending to sorrow? One can
only respond completely to it when one has no fear, when one is
not caught up in the machinery of pleasure, when one is not
escaping from it, seeking comfort, but responding to it with all
one's energy - a response that is the expression of the totality
of one's energy.
In the understanding of the cause of sorrow does sorrow
disappear? I may say to myself: "I am full of self-pity, if I
can end self-pity there will be no sorrow." So I work at getting
rid of it because I see how silly it is; I try to suppress it; I
worry about it like a dog with a bone. And I may,
intellectually, think I am free from sorrow. But the uncovering
of the cause of sorrow is not the ending of sorrow. The
searching for the cause of sorrow is a wastage of energy; sorrow
is there, demanding one's tremendous attention. It is a
challenge asking one to act. But instead of that one says: "Let
me look to the cause; let me find out; is it this, that, or the
other? I may be mistaken; let me talk it over with others; or is
there some book that will tell me what the real cause is?" But
all this is moving away from the actual fact, the actual,
response to that challenge.
If one's mind, the movement of its thought, is looking through
its memory and responding according to that memory, according to
previous knowledge, then one is acting not directly to the
challenge, but merely responding from memory, from the past. I
am in sorrow, my son, my wife, or the social conditions - the
poverty, the brutality of man - bring about a great sorrow in
me. It wants a response, a complete response, from me as a human
being who represents the totality of humanity. If thought
responds to the challenge saying: "I must find out how to
respond to it; I have had sorrow before and I know all the
meaning of the suffering and the pain, the anxiety and the
loneliness of sorrow," then it is responding according to
remembrance, therefore it is not an actual response; it is not
actually seeing the fact that any response to that challenge
from memory is no response at all, it is mere reaction. It is
not action, it is reaction. Once see that, then the question is:
What is the root of it all - not the cause? When there is a
cause there is an effect and the effect in turn becomes a cause
and the action from that becomes the cause for the next action.
There is a chain effect. When the mind is caught in this limited
chain, and it is always limited, then any response to the
challenge will be very limited and time bound. But can one act
to that challenge without a time interval? One may not actually
have had any immediate sorrow, but one sees the enormity of the
sorrow of mankind - the global sorrow of mankind. If one
responds to that according to one's conditioning, according to
one's past memory, then one is caught in action that is always
time binding. The challenge and its response demand no time
interval. Therefore there is instant action.
Fear is the movement of thought - thought as measure. Fear is
time. Thought is the response of memory, knowledge, experience;
it is limited; it is a movement in time. If there is no time
there is no fear. I am living now but I am afraid I might die -
I might in the future. There is a time interval produced by
thought. But if there is no time interval at all, there is no
fear. So, in the same way: is the root of sorrow time? - time
being the movement of thought. And if there is no thought at
all, when one responds to that challenge, is there suffering?
Can one put away, for the time being, all one's habitual ideas
about time, sorrow and fear? Put away all one's conclusions, all
that one has read about sorrow and begin again as though one
knew nothing about sorrow. Though one suffers one has no answer
to it. But one has been so conditioned: put the burden of sorrow
on to somebody else, as Christianity has done so beautifully; go
to church and one sees all the suffering in that figure. The
Christians have given all that suffering over to somebody and
think by that they have understood the whole vast field of
sorrow. In India, in the Asiatic countries, they have also
another form of evasion - karma. But face the actual movement at
the moment of sorrow and be completely choicelessly aware of
that thing and one asks: Is time, which is thought, the
fundamental issue that makes sorrow flower? Is thought
responsible for suffering? - not only the suffering of others,
the brutality of others, but for the total ignorance of this
whole earth.
There is no new thought; there is no free thought. There is only
thought and that is the response of knowledge and experience,
stored up in the brain as memory. Now if that is fact, if one
sees that it is true that sorrow is the outcome of time and
thought - if that is not a supposition - then one is responding
to sorrow without the me for the me is put together by thought.
My name, my form, how I look, my qualities, my reactions, all
the things that are acquired, are all put together by thought.
Thought is `me'. Time is `me', the self, the ego, the
personality, all that is the movement of time as me. When there
is no time, when one responds to this challenge of suffering and
there is no me, then, is there suffering?
Is not all sorrow based on me, the individual, the personality,
the ego? It is the self that says, "I suffer", "I am lonely", "I
am anxious", this whole movement, this whole structure, is me in
thought. And thought posits not only me but also that I am a
superior me - something far superior to thought; yet it is still
the movement of thought. So, there is an ending to sorrow when
there is no me.